What can I say?
Im feeling pretty low right now. Dont ask why cuz I wont tell you.
Its my secret...and until I can come out and say it, then no one will know.
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My chest hurts quite a bit right now...and I kind of feel like crying...but I cant.
I can never cry when Im sad...I just...cant.
The only time I can really cry is when I make myself cry, and when that happends Im not at all sad, Im just playing around.
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I dont know what to do with myself...I...actually want to eat some more coffee crisp chocolate bars.
Or maybe some nice baked potatos...or even some nice yummy perogies.
But...I dont think we have any.
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I...kinda figured out what I want to do. I want to lay in bed, light off so its completely dark ((The kind of dark that you find in a basment at night)) and just wollow in self pitty.
And maybe even cry a bit if I can.
...*Smiles a bit sadly*...
My cat is trying to conffert me...maybe he knows Im hurting...usualy can feel it so...
*Strokes Titus*
Man he's cute...he makes me...a little bit happier...I guess.
At lest Im not that alone. At lest some one knows and is trying to understand where Im at right now.
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I feel like having a nice hot bath, lights off...maybe drown myself a bit while Im at it.
Maybe have some candles in there too...or something electricel so I can electricute myself by accident.
But I dont want to get my hair wet...and I want to smoke some green.
Maybe I'll do that first...then try and drown myself a bit...